Long time no see :D

Yes its been two years and i havent posted anything...rather then listing down the reasons i will just write down what i have to(just to save everyone's precious time ;D)
Well i have grown up emotionally..(physically too..i have put on few kgs)...i have become more stable in life from a restless wild carefree babe..
So i dont have emotinal outbursts like before, i tackle things more subtly and put more thoughts to my actions...my friends who know me will say i am not the same person all i can say is yes i have changed for good..I can have fun and be mature at the same time..rare combination right!
I have met many new people..left few people behind..learnt to ignore whom i couldnt stand..continued with ones i liked..
I feel this is what our parents mean when they say so and so have settled down in life....its more than finding a partner..house...money..etc..its the feeling the understanding you develop with life and oneself...you just know to what extent you can go for something...i guess i cant be called a confused soul anymore....But yes..i am still more soul than mind..so i will let my blog name remain the way it is..:D

Ode to our friendship…..

As i am gonna start a new phase in my life...This one goes for my sweetheart....Darling love you loads...

I am not gonna write stories here….this is how I feel..i am impulsive as u know..so ill write what I feel now..!!!!

I met this gal with a bandage on my neck..
I said “I can’t move my neck you see its paining bad”…she said “oh is it??”
The bandage disappeared but a new bond was formed called prendhip..the same one..app mujhse prendship karegi….do u want to do predship with me pleazzz(read sex)??

Don’t know why she opened up to me with her problems on the first day when I ask her even today she gives me a look that she doesn’t know… with that twinkle in her eyes…
I know she herself has no answer to it…but I love that look…J

Then over the cup of tea and coffee and so many other discussions we started realizing that its fun to be together…Before she said anything I knew it…and vice a versa..
We read each others eyes even when sitting with other people…I exactly knew what she is thinking and about whom…

Brackets are the unspoken words…

Chachi:My husband likes me in noodle straps..
A: wow (my husband will be sane enuf to see me bare…without straps)

Balan: Hi Deepa
D: Hi Sir(stop looking at my boobs)
A: Smiles (now u know what I go through)

Don: I did this project..because of me you are here..
D: ya what would I do without you(I want to run away)
A: is it? (Bitch give the credit to D she has worked not you)

Some jokes were understood before even completing the first line...and the jokes were never for below 18 years

Hand in hand,
That in hand,
Hand in that…
That in that…

Through thick and thin…and it goes for our body types too….Through the gyming and the not gyming days from fat to ok to fat we have been there for each other…

I owe a lot to the guys in our lives because of them we were never short of words…

Assholes….mother fuckers…uski ma ki..behen ki….she has no dressing sense…oh god look at that attitude…what does she think of herself…???
There are so many phrases…we have the golden authority to pass a comment on the world and no…. no one says anything to us…we may be badly dressed mishaved but that’s ok…it was just a bad hair day…lols…

I thank all the assholes and the not so good ppl in my life coz of them I realize the worth of a person who is good…

This gal has a heart of gold..she is giving at the same time taking…though she only takes people’s ass..hahahha
Without her I cant imagine my stay in this fucking boring company with dead faces…bitching about Don..Eesh…Balan..Chachi…Mr. Meesra(stress on the sssssss)

I cant imagine my marriage …she did more than a sis could have done…It feels that if it pains to me she ll start crying…It feels so good to have you honey…..

If we both are together we can kick ass the world and show the middle finger saying fuck u…hahahaha have u read any sentence with more abuses in it…
Alright u can praise me for this. thanks in advance..

She is amongst the few who can understand my dry humor..most of the people make faces or think how rude…but with her a joke is a joke…and what the hell it all about laughing…right…

I ll miss you darling…miss you bad…trust me had u been a guy or had I been a guy I would have married you…

Balls to the world we would have been happy..

Did u read the news paper today 2 gals got married today in Delhi…so wanna repeat history…what do u say honey???i can leave any thing for you..anything…u know what I mean….hhahahaa


Well when I started to write this letter I thought it will centi and all…but I cant be centi with you man…thinking of you all I can write is fun..

You are fun I am fun…we are fun…come on baby lets have fun;-)

Trust me its my dream to go to Goa with you get drunk and dance sing..and tell the world that we don’t give a fuck to them…we don’t need them…Someday…we will do this…Swear….no Amit no Sumanth…just u and me…and beach…mini skirts…vodka…and music…ummmmmmmmm……

I know I am leaving..what can I do baby…life takes its own turns…and this is one of those change mechanism its playing on us.

I know you’ll cry(maybe not in front of me)the day I leave…all I can say ill cry too baby…but not coz I am leaving HCL coz I am being taken away from a person with whom I can live my childhood again…someone who doesn’t care how old I am or how I should act…Someone who just wants me have fun and be a kid…

It’s scientifically proven that human beings love to be with people with whom they can be kids…so its not my fault to love you…

But I promise as long as Airtel,Idea,Hutch,Reliance and others offer free or cheap calling cards ill keep calling you and keep in touch else my office fone will be utilized u think I am talking cheap…darling that’s apart of my CTC…and you say I don’t spend on you cheapo….

Ill call you from hell even if there its ISD rates and chase you ill be your agony aunt till I become deaf..Now that’s a promise…(toothpaste)

I love you baby….Thats all I can write you know I can go on with my crap forever and you love me for this don’t you…I am not giving you any options…

Don’t cha want your girlfriend as hot like me…my take on this you haven’t met my gal and that’s the reason you wasted your lyrics on succa song…and moved your nonexistent asses…hahahahaha…

I guess I should end…and ya don’t worry you are not fat…all that weight is to keep you on earth…coz you are so good that if you are any lighter youll fly with all the praises coming from everyone…God is great..so am i…
Thanks again….lol


All the best for marrying your ass (all guys are guys I think asses will mind if we call them guys)I know you will make it there one day…hahahha and he will make it here…..

Enuf….ending here…

Fuck the world…Hail to us….

I am too good are u???

I know few people who suffer from I am good mania….
They can’t stop blabbering about their achievements, strengths etc.
They have a feeling that the world is willing to listen to them and always begin and end the conversation no matter what the occasion is…

But I have noticed majority of such people do well in their professional life..
They are favorites of their bosses and achieve much more than a people who work and dont blabber about themselves….

Even between relatives and friends they are considered good and outspoken…
They have everything but one thing that they can never relax.They are always on the go and looking for opportunities to plunge in their achievements and talk about themselves…

How good is this I am good mania????

Should I start tasting the oh so tempting myself….
Guess I already know it just need a lil practice…

Music....

I have realized music can do wonders to me…
It can make me shiver in the hot sun…
It can take me to a world where there is nothing but happiness…

Music can make words disappear. Make things meaningless…
Music is something every creature in this world can fall in love with..
It can’t be learnt there is so much that you can only keep discovering it more and more every day…

Everything little sound has a feeling attached to it…
Music is God….Music is the core of our existence…

Music is the best thing man ever discovered….
It can show you a different world and make u reach nirvana..

Thank you God for making me blessed enough to feel the most treasured thing in this world…

Going home..

Going home. Going home.

I'm a-going home.Quiet-like some still day,

I'm just going home.
It's not far, just close by, through an open door.

Work all done, cares laid by, Going to fear no more;
Mother's there expecting me, Father's waiting, too.

Lot's of folks gathered there. All the friends I knew.
Morning star lights the way, restless dream all done.

Shadows gone, break of day, real life just begun.
There's no break, there's no end, just a-living on;

Wide awake, with a smile, going on and on.
Going home. Going home,

I'm just going home.

It's not far, just close by, through an open door.

Some things....

I don’t know why some things happen they way they do..
And amazingly they happen all the time…repeatedly without failing not to happen…
Some of the things that I face and want to change badly..

The milk, tea almost anything kept on gas…always spills when u just go out of the kitchen for a second….no matter how many hours you have been standing next to the gas, it wont spill or wont even show a signal that its going to spill..But when you come back after just one sec to the kitchen it has just spoilt your kitchen evenly.Big conspiracy…

You plan for something badly…and are excited about it big time...but when it is about to happen you feel why is it happening at all???Why did I ever pray for it...and to add to it in case you are happy even when its happening….just at the last point it gets stuck…

Good things come when you don’t need it…or may be you don’t realize coz its good…

Past is always good…no matter what and how you have lived…

Confusion is a part of life…even when you are getting the best thing in life you are indecisive…

When you want to prove how good you at something…that thing stops reciprocating and you’ll be standing as a fool saying...”oh trust me I know it well just that I am having a bad hair day” uhhhhhh…

You are good but not good enough…when you are trying to talk about yourself and what all you have done and all…there are people who are always better off and have better stories…

You never find that one right song in your MP3 player with almost 500 songs….and listen to the radio which somewhat plays the same music…

There is never that perfect dress for that perfect day when you are looking for one in your overflowing wardrobe…and even if you find when it needs ironing…and guess what there is no electricity…

There is more traffic on the road when you are already late…

Oh!!!! They are so many more…but I think I should stop wasting more space here…

I rise like a wave....

Like the rain settles down the dust to earth..

Like the dark think tunnel has light at its end..

Like every hard shell has soft sead inside...

Like the clouds cover the hot scorching sun..

Life shows you the way to to survive and play the game...

Life..so many questions..so many answers...a mystery solved yet so unsolved...

I am so Special....

When you think..life has given you everything you want...poof you realise its all fake...

The happiness that you have been thanking God for is taken away...Sounds dramatic right...

There is nothing more dramatic than your own life...coz you are living every bit of it...

Every ecstasy every pain is comparable to no one..coz u go through your own set of highs and lows....then why do we compare????compare people...life's and who's better than whom...why do have so much competition around...isn't there enough space for everyone in this world..cant we enjoy ourselves for a change rather than becoming someone to prove our worth to this world...

I always thought..people who love you will love you for what you are...i have been trying hard to prove myself and it pains to see dissatisfaction in some one's eyes...Its unsaid and cold...and i can feel that i have failed to what i wanted to prove..

I cant tell anyone about it....its just that i have to live with it every minute of my life...I have reached a state in my life where acceptance is what i can show...i dare not fight...dare not raise my voice...i dare not make anyone unhappy....

All i can do is tell myself..."better times are on my way"

God whispered something in my ears...

I was too small to understand what he said..

When i grew up i realised i can sing...

I thought God had told me to sing and make the world happy...

So I sang and sang to make myself feel good..

I made music my life....

Few years later i realised i can dance to any odd beat..

I thought God had told me to dance to express myself..

and fight all the odds in life...

So i danced to all the tunes i could..

But with time my songs and music begun to fade..

I could not understand what is that i am living for...

Is it just another head in the crowd with no purpose in life??Am i here to make no sound and pass away in silence??

Then i realised God had told me i am SPECIAL child of his..

He had told me:

"i ll test your patience a little more than others..so that you keep yourself grounded and miss me all the time...so that you call my name and tell me to solve your problems"...

Its because God misses me too much and does not want me to forget him...

So he gave me little extra tears than few people...

He didn't make my life hell...because then i would hate him...

He just added few problems in my life to remain in my wish list...

All i can say is God i miss you and yes I am grounded and patient...Just listen to all my prayers...

Yes its me again....

I had a blog of mine and because of some reason i had to delete everything i wrote... but that doesnt stop me to write again...

Life is changing very fast for me and i am trying to cope up with it fast...i am confused as usual..thinking whats right and whats wrong...i keep telling myself DONT THINK...so here i find a vent out of my irritating mind...

Recently i went to Mauritius and fell in love with that place...i wish life was a holiday and i never ever had to return back..sometimes i feel i am living for others and not myself... Had i lived my way life would be different and crazy...may be its good for me..may be bad..!! see i said my mind is crazy...

I guess i ll catch hold of you later...when i am not in a thinking mood...which may take a long long time...;-)