I am so Special....

When you think..life has given you everything you want...poof you realise its all fake...

The happiness that you have been thanking God for is taken away...Sounds dramatic right...

There is nothing more dramatic than your own life...coz you are living every bit of it...

Every ecstasy every pain is comparable to no one..coz u go through your own set of highs and lows....then why do we compare????compare people...life's and who's better than whom...why do have so much competition around...isn't there enough space for everyone in this world..cant we enjoy ourselves for a change rather than becoming someone to prove our worth to this world...

I always thought..people who love you will love you for what you are...i have been trying hard to prove myself and it pains to see dissatisfaction in some one's eyes...Its unsaid and cold...and i can feel that i have failed to what i wanted to prove..

I cant tell anyone about it....its just that i have to live with it every minute of my life...I have reached a state in my life where acceptance is what i can show...i dare not fight...dare not raise my voice...i dare not make anyone unhappy....

All i can do is tell myself..."better times are on my way"

God whispered something in my ears...

I was too small to understand what he said..

When i grew up i realised i can sing...

I thought God had told me to sing and make the world happy...

So I sang and sang to make myself feel good..

I made music my life....

Few years later i realised i can dance to any odd beat..

I thought God had told me to dance to express myself..

and fight all the odds in life...

So i danced to all the tunes i could..

But with time my songs and music begun to fade..

I could not understand what is that i am living for...

Is it just another head in the crowd with no purpose in life??Am i here to make no sound and pass away in silence??

Then i realised God had told me i am SPECIAL child of his..

He had told me:

"i ll test your patience a little more than others..so that you keep yourself grounded and miss me all the time...so that you call my name and tell me to solve your problems"...

Its because God misses me too much and does not want me to forget him...

So he gave me little extra tears than few people...

He didn't make my life hell...because then i would hate him...

He just added few problems in my life to remain in my wish list...

All i can say is God i miss you and yes I am grounded and patient...Just listen to all my prayers...